Post by Noah Hanson on Mar 15, 2016 4:57:13 GMT -5
The future...
What does it hold for us? Can we look past what has happened in the past and see what we have right in front of us TODAY? Or are we destined to let what has happened to us in the past directly affect what shapes us in the future?
See when I saw the line up for the Jokers Wild IPPV and saw who I was teamed up someone has a fucking crazy sense of humor to actually team me with people like John Pariah and JP Caliban. I mean people know my god damn history with Pariah we have fought, bled and damn near killed each other and then there is the little fact that Pariah did try to kill me, he at the very least tried to end my wrestling career so what do the people here in Boardwalk do? They put us on the same fucking team where to win we have to actually work together, to survive and move forward we have to try to coexist and that the only we might actually have to trust each other. And to be totally honest I am not sure that I can trust Pariah I am not sure that I can actually stand next to John during a match and not want to fucking beat the ever loving dog shit out of him while we are standing outside the ring.
The man must be a little on the delusional side because he keeps blowing up my cell phone, my Twitter, my facebook messenger trying to act like we are pals. But the fact of the matter is this, things were never going to be fine because of what that piece of shit did to me in Chicago. I mean the man came in and tried to end my career and he thinks that simply because we had a match a few weeks ago and that he came out on top that by some feet of magic that it just all ends. He just doesn't realize that even though we are separated by two different feds the fact is I still want to take some revenge out on this and to be honest when I saw the card I really thought long and hard about not even showing up and screwing him out of a chance to win the one hundred thousand and then I would send in a little video letting him know that I did on my free will and that I loved every minute of it. But what I think is going to be better is to be standing there next to the man and just stare a fucking hole through his ass for the entire match and just let him know that the hatred for the man still burns in my fucking gut. With every punch, kick and suplex I use on the members of the other team I will be looking at John Pariah and letting him know that I still fucking hate him with every drop of blood in my body.
I want him to know that when we walk out as the winners he will have to look over at me and know that he had me to thank for some of that. I know that it will eat him up, I know that because he didn't finish the job the first time and then again he could have ended it permanently in our last match but he decided to just survive out last encounter, he just wanted to be able to walk away or at least crawl away and he did just that he got away, he was able to survive and that was my fault, I let that happen. So now we are being forced to team together and make no mistake about it I look at the man and it makes my blood boil. I know that when we are all in the ring it will take every bit of self control to not just bum rush the man and take him out before the match even begins but you know his pal JP Caliban won't let that happen.
JP Caliban, one of Pariah's pals from Refedine, more like a lackey to be perfectly honest, hell even going to back to the days of Pro Wrestling X Caliban has always seemed to run with Pariah. He must have lost Pariahs scent, must have been too busy looking for his other pal Jordan C to sit down and give Pariah a heads up but here he is now and I have read the dirt sheets and they all say that Pariah can trust Caliban and Nighthawk and that one has to wonder if Pariah can trust me but the thing is none of the Boardwalk faithful know John Pariah as well as I do. I have been through the fucking fire with whatever Pariah has pushed through the wrestling world. I have watched as Jason Parker Olesen would push his agenda through the roster and usually included pushing his friends and soldiers to the moon while the ones that mindlessly followed JPO from one project to the next would be forced to muddle through the midcard area. I know, “you get what you get” and yeah I guess to a certain degree that would be correct but rewarding loyalty should never be watching as the staff hand picks who they want to shine, people were never given the chances that they deserved in PWX or in Redefine that was part of the reason I never came to Redefine was because there is an old saying that goes a little like this “fool me once shame on me, fool me twice shame on you” and well after the first two times I wasn't about be suckered in on a third run with a JPO run company.
I had grown tired of politics, of posturing by management, then after High Octane Wrestling I have really gotten frustrated with never being given the chance to do what I do best and that is just kick peoples asses. That is why I went to Scranton and decided to work for a company that is not mainstream, no fancy Casino backing them, no money being thrown like confetti just guys and ladies that want to put on a good show and to hell with the rest.
The thing is I know that some people, the ones that truly know me will say “But Noah aren't you part of the “Authority” the group that is employed by the lady that runs North Atlantic Wrestling” “Pot Meet Kettle”. And to a degree I would have to agree but there is one big difference, I do not answer to Alice White, I do what I want when I want so no this is not like how Caliban and Jordan have ran with Pariah in the past and to be totally honest I am shocked that more of Pariah's pals haven't shown up and backed the man you know reinforce the whole “Redefine Boardwalk” movement. I mean is I really a movement at all when there are only two of you to try and make it happen. The reason I say that is because he knows that people like myself, Brian Hollywood and Darin Zion for all our differences have been burned one to many times by John Pariah and it may have took some of us longer to see the man for what he but we all have learned. We all have learned that trusting John Pariah is a risky endeavor and one that should be done at your own peril. See that is why I don't get people like Caliban and even worse when I see that Nighthawk is on this team because Hawk has never had much luck fighting me, I owned the “Wrestling Machine” back when we were both in PWX. The man tried to beat me all over the place and did get one win over me but the fact of the matter is I owned him like a slave in the South.
I see Nighthawk on this team and while Hawk might be a trustworthy fighter and he is, the man is all about fighting with honor and never really being the kind that you have to worry about stabbing you from behind. I never had to worry 'bout that but one thing I always thought about him was did he realize what Pariah is really capable of or is he just that blind? The funny thing about this match, that there is probably more issues between the members on our team then we have with the team that we are going to be facing. I look at my teammates and I hate them more then I hate the other team combined.
The only one that I know that will not try and throw me under the bus is Allister Black and that doesn't mean that we haven't fought at some point and time because we have met a few times even once recently but when I see Black I see a man that is a warrior like me, one that will fight with courage and valor and do what needs to be done.
That is why I look at Pariah, Hawk and Caliban and while Pariah thinks I am going to do “What needs to be done for the greater good” whatever the hell that means, I am going to do what is best for ME and ME only remember that John-boy. If he thinks he is running this team then he is for a long match because he may be the one that gets first billing but Noah Hanson is going to be doing what he has been doing for nearly seventeen years and that is stealing everyone’s thunder.
Having the Casino Champion in this match should get just about everyone’s attention whether they like it or the lady has a ton of talent. It is going to be tough sledding with her in the match. I look forward to getting the chance to match up with someone as talented as Ms. Foxe, she paid me a compliment and I would be a real dick if I didn't at least tip my hat to the compliment and say “thank you”. I appreciate the vote of confidence Ms. Foxe, I really do coming from someone as esteemed as you are in Boardwalk I really do appreciate it. One thing I do want to say is don't downplay Pariah's boyfriend Caliban those two have quite a history and almost go hand in hand, I am actually shocked it has taken him this long to get here. Some day Ms. Foxe maybe someday I will be able to give my full attention to Boardwalk but for now I am perfectly content doing what I am doing and just glad to be a part of a great fed even if it is not on a full time basis. One final thin I wanna say is that Amy Jo couldn't have picked a better person to fill in for her...
I might not get the call from High Octane Wrestling to get a slot in War Games but you know what maybe that is all for the better. Maybe taking out all my frustrations out on the Boardwalk talent is just what the doctor ordered. And to be honest its Lee's loss for not trying to get a hold of me anyway he is still in my contact list and I know he knows I have been lobbying for a spot but whatever it is what it is again his loss.
As far as the Joker's Wild IPPV and this Jackpot Elimination series of matches consider me all in for this. The chips that the survivor or survivors get don't really mean anything to me this is about making a statement, not just to John Pariah but to the rest of the Boardwalk roster that you don't look past Noah Hanson and you never EVER take him lightly because that would be a huge mistake for each and every one of you. I want people to see what I can do from a “Fisher Price” fed like the one I work for because you know if you don't work in an “Elite” fed then by their claims you work in a junk fed. Well at Joker's Wild I am going out there for all the “Fisher Price” feds and shoving my middle finger right up each and every one of their asses and showing them that like I have said in the past the Fisher Price feds were here BEFORE you and will be here AFTER you close your doors.
One thing that being in feds like HOW and PWX showed me is that politics are still alive and well in the business and that they are not going away anytime soon. That is why I have chosen the route that I have these days and chosen the road less taken, I no longer crave the adulation and glitz and glamor that being in one of the so called “Elite” feds brings with it because those feds are also about being elitist in their attitudes and that is something I can no longer tolerate. North Atlantic Wrestling doesn't have all the bells and whistles of other feds and that is ok because not everyone craves those types of things.
Sometimes thinking that you need to be in the best feds and then seeing what they are really like backstage is the only real eye-opener you'll ever need. Sometimes the feds with the least to offer are actually the best in nature...
It's not always the brightest, prettiest or most expensive things that people need, sometimes the simple things in life are just fine...
[Bally's Hotel and Casino]
[Atlantic City, NJ]
[3/13/2016]
[1 pm]
[Spotify: “Rock With You” by Michael Jackson]
[Noah Fun Fact: Plays a mean game of Black Ops 2]
[Noah and Vixen are seen checking into their room for the next few days while they are in town for the Boardwalk PPV. They could have went to any hotel but decided to just keep it simple and get a room in Bally's. Noah looks around and tosses his gear bag on the floor in front of the bed and then walks over to kitchen area and looks at small fridge and opens it and there is a clan of Mountain Dew Livewire and smiles widely as he grabs a bottle and opens one up and takes a long drink and smiles widely. One of the few things that truly makes him happy these days, he walks over to the window and looks over the bright lights of the street below and shakes his head as he opens the window a little.]
“What am I doing?” Noah asked Vixen as he sat down on the bed. Vixen who was unpacking the couples laptop looked at her boyfriend curiously at the question as she walked over to him.
“What do you mean?” Vixen asked as she sat next to her man, placing a supportive hand on his knee. “It's only one match and you're not even doing a full time gig in Boardwalk.”
“I mean why do I keep doing this?” Noah asked. “At some point and time I have to face facts and see that I need to quit doing all this before I really do end up dead and worse it ends up being in the ring.”
Vixen looked concerned at her man and squeezed his knee gently. “Where is all this coming from?”
“You have no idea how many nights I have stayed awake wondering why I am still alive. You don't know how much torture it is seeing friends and family in my dreams, calling out to me, asking me why I am still alive almost like they are mad at me.” Noah said calmly, looking down at the floor. “Why am I alive? I don't deserve to be alive babe...i don't I should have died years ago....”
“Listen to yourself...” Vixen barked. “Are you trying to make me feel sorry for you? I know that this is bad for you, I know all about your past and that is why I love you but you need to shake this shit off and move on, life is unfair sometimes, people die, it happens and for whatever reason you have been lucky enough to survive shit that would have killed just about anyone else. Do I have the answers you're looking for? No....obviously...but you need to pull yourself together and get over it. Do you think Claire Foxe, Mike Zybala, Nova or any of those clowns on the other team are going to feel sorry for you or maybe go a little easier on you? Do you think John Pariah or Caliban is going to give a fuck about any of that?”
“No.” Noah coldly replied. “I don't expect anyone to understand what I have had to live through, my curse, my legacy but I am glad to have one thing in my life and that is you. I just wanted to tank you for sticking with me through all of this, I really don't deserve you at all even when I tried to cast you out of my life you still stuck it out...”
“I love you babe and I will do whatever I can to make all this right.” Vixen explained. “Karen, Kristina they both love you and they wanted me to watch over you and try to protect you the best I could because they knew that what they did to you scared you badly and I didn't make things any easier by the way I handled things but I am trying to fix it, I am trying to make everything right but you have to trust me things are the way they are because fate and destiny have it played out this way. You are meant for far greater things then anything you have done now.”
Noah sighed loudly at this explanation, one that he has been told over and over and has gotten tired of hearing over the years, this “greater good” deal, like he is some sort of messiah. “Quit sayin' that garbage my name is Noah Hanson, I am not Moses or Judas or fuckin' John Connor, I am not leading anyone to any sort of promised land, I am just someone that has gotten lucky and cheated death a few to many times and eventually my time just like everyone else will catch up with me.” Noah shook his head. “Cheating death..i wish people would just drop that garbage, that myth, legend whatever you want to call it started in Wrestling Midwest at Blood Factory, people thought I should have died then getting thrown off the cage and through the ring and to the floor. Maybe I should have died but to this day I still don't remember the match itself, I don't remember the months after it either. I only saw it months after when WMW replayed the PPV that I saw first hand just how fucked up I was and how bad I looked. Say we make it out of this match and I make it to the main event or whatever it is there could be some real heavy hitters in this Bryan Williams, Skylar Fall, Ash Scion and then the two that won the thing last year are also back for this year. So surviving this match is just as crazy and winning it has to be an even bigger long-shot considering everything and everyone that could possibly make it to the end.”
“Well you know this is also a chance for you and Darin to talk, you both are in town for the same show.” Vixen said, trying to obviously deflect the subject to something different.
“Look, Darin has a lot on his plate....the man has a big challenge in front of him...i don't even know where to start to look for the man. In a lot of ways it hurts not to be able to talk to someone that I used to call a brother but the other part of me understands that he needs to do stuff on his own and I can respect that, doesn't mean I like it but I can respect what the man wants to do. I want him to beat Devlin, I want him to show everyone, most importantly I want him to show LEE BEST that Darin Zion is a WORLD CLASS talent. I always saw the man as a great fighter but Lee has never looked at Zion seriously, not as bad as he looked down at me but he has always looked down at the man. Maybe that is why it has taken me so long to pick up all the pieces of my broken career, something I can thank Lee Best, John Pariah and Chris Kostoff for.” Noah paused for a moment as he watched Vixen get all of their stuff out of their bags and started sorting through things. “Do I think about retiring? All the damn time, is this the last year I do all this? Possibly, but I still need to fix a few things, I need to mend a few bridges if it is possibly but first thing I need to do is make sure that “OUR” team wins this match and whichever ones of us survive move on. We could have a lot of fun with fifty thousand in chips at Bally's but I really shouldn't get ahead of myself. I just have some work to do...”
Noah grabbed his cell and billfold and started walking towards the door.
“Where ya going?” Vixen asked.
“Going to get a drink at the bar.” Noah replied, forcing a smile out and then walking over and kissing Vixen.
“Want some company?” Vixen asked.
“Nah...just get everything set up I'll be back, just need to clear my head a little.” Noah replied.
Vixen watched as Noah exited the room and then she pulled her cell out and went through her contacts and stopped at “Karen” and hit “call” after a couple of moments passed Vixen spoke to Karen. “You need to talk to him, he needs you to talk to him.” Vixen ended the call and then looked at the door. “If you wanna mend bridges you have to start with your own past baby...”
[end]
What does it hold for us? Can we look past what has happened in the past and see what we have right in front of us TODAY? Or are we destined to let what has happened to us in the past directly affect what shapes us in the future?
See when I saw the line up for the Jokers Wild IPPV and saw who I was teamed up someone has a fucking crazy sense of humor to actually team me with people like John Pariah and JP Caliban. I mean people know my god damn history with Pariah we have fought, bled and damn near killed each other and then there is the little fact that Pariah did try to kill me, he at the very least tried to end my wrestling career so what do the people here in Boardwalk do? They put us on the same fucking team where to win we have to actually work together, to survive and move forward we have to try to coexist and that the only we might actually have to trust each other. And to be totally honest I am not sure that I can trust Pariah I am not sure that I can actually stand next to John during a match and not want to fucking beat the ever loving dog shit out of him while we are standing outside the ring.
The man must be a little on the delusional side because he keeps blowing up my cell phone, my Twitter, my facebook messenger trying to act like we are pals. But the fact of the matter is this, things were never going to be fine because of what that piece of shit did to me in Chicago. I mean the man came in and tried to end my career and he thinks that simply because we had a match a few weeks ago and that he came out on top that by some feet of magic that it just all ends. He just doesn't realize that even though we are separated by two different feds the fact is I still want to take some revenge out on this and to be honest when I saw the card I really thought long and hard about not even showing up and screwing him out of a chance to win the one hundred thousand and then I would send in a little video letting him know that I did on my free will and that I loved every minute of it. But what I think is going to be better is to be standing there next to the man and just stare a fucking hole through his ass for the entire match and just let him know that the hatred for the man still burns in my fucking gut. With every punch, kick and suplex I use on the members of the other team I will be looking at John Pariah and letting him know that I still fucking hate him with every drop of blood in my body.
I want him to know that when we walk out as the winners he will have to look over at me and know that he had me to thank for some of that. I know that it will eat him up, I know that because he didn't finish the job the first time and then again he could have ended it permanently in our last match but he decided to just survive out last encounter, he just wanted to be able to walk away or at least crawl away and he did just that he got away, he was able to survive and that was my fault, I let that happen. So now we are being forced to team together and make no mistake about it I look at the man and it makes my blood boil. I know that when we are all in the ring it will take every bit of self control to not just bum rush the man and take him out before the match even begins but you know his pal JP Caliban won't let that happen.
JP Caliban, one of Pariah's pals from Refedine, more like a lackey to be perfectly honest, hell even going to back to the days of Pro Wrestling X Caliban has always seemed to run with Pariah. He must have lost Pariahs scent, must have been too busy looking for his other pal Jordan C to sit down and give Pariah a heads up but here he is now and I have read the dirt sheets and they all say that Pariah can trust Caliban and Nighthawk and that one has to wonder if Pariah can trust me but the thing is none of the Boardwalk faithful know John Pariah as well as I do. I have been through the fucking fire with whatever Pariah has pushed through the wrestling world. I have watched as Jason Parker Olesen would push his agenda through the roster and usually included pushing his friends and soldiers to the moon while the ones that mindlessly followed JPO from one project to the next would be forced to muddle through the midcard area. I know, “you get what you get” and yeah I guess to a certain degree that would be correct but rewarding loyalty should never be watching as the staff hand picks who they want to shine, people were never given the chances that they deserved in PWX or in Redefine that was part of the reason I never came to Redefine was because there is an old saying that goes a little like this “fool me once shame on me, fool me twice shame on you” and well after the first two times I wasn't about be suckered in on a third run with a JPO run company.
I had grown tired of politics, of posturing by management, then after High Octane Wrestling I have really gotten frustrated with never being given the chance to do what I do best and that is just kick peoples asses. That is why I went to Scranton and decided to work for a company that is not mainstream, no fancy Casino backing them, no money being thrown like confetti just guys and ladies that want to put on a good show and to hell with the rest.
The thing is I know that some people, the ones that truly know me will say “But Noah aren't you part of the “Authority” the group that is employed by the lady that runs North Atlantic Wrestling” “Pot Meet Kettle”. And to a degree I would have to agree but there is one big difference, I do not answer to Alice White, I do what I want when I want so no this is not like how Caliban and Jordan have ran with Pariah in the past and to be totally honest I am shocked that more of Pariah's pals haven't shown up and backed the man you know reinforce the whole “Redefine Boardwalk” movement. I mean is I really a movement at all when there are only two of you to try and make it happen. The reason I say that is because he knows that people like myself, Brian Hollywood and Darin Zion for all our differences have been burned one to many times by John Pariah and it may have took some of us longer to see the man for what he but we all have learned. We all have learned that trusting John Pariah is a risky endeavor and one that should be done at your own peril. See that is why I don't get people like Caliban and even worse when I see that Nighthawk is on this team because Hawk has never had much luck fighting me, I owned the “Wrestling Machine” back when we were both in PWX. The man tried to beat me all over the place and did get one win over me but the fact of the matter is I owned him like a slave in the South.
I see Nighthawk on this team and while Hawk might be a trustworthy fighter and he is, the man is all about fighting with honor and never really being the kind that you have to worry about stabbing you from behind. I never had to worry 'bout that but one thing I always thought about him was did he realize what Pariah is really capable of or is he just that blind? The funny thing about this match, that there is probably more issues between the members on our team then we have with the team that we are going to be facing. I look at my teammates and I hate them more then I hate the other team combined.
The only one that I know that will not try and throw me under the bus is Allister Black and that doesn't mean that we haven't fought at some point and time because we have met a few times even once recently but when I see Black I see a man that is a warrior like me, one that will fight with courage and valor and do what needs to be done.
That is why I look at Pariah, Hawk and Caliban and while Pariah thinks I am going to do “What needs to be done for the greater good” whatever the hell that means, I am going to do what is best for ME and ME only remember that John-boy. If he thinks he is running this team then he is for a long match because he may be the one that gets first billing but Noah Hanson is going to be doing what he has been doing for nearly seventeen years and that is stealing everyone’s thunder.
Having the Casino Champion in this match should get just about everyone’s attention whether they like it or the lady has a ton of talent. It is going to be tough sledding with her in the match. I look forward to getting the chance to match up with someone as talented as Ms. Foxe, she paid me a compliment and I would be a real dick if I didn't at least tip my hat to the compliment and say “thank you”. I appreciate the vote of confidence Ms. Foxe, I really do coming from someone as esteemed as you are in Boardwalk I really do appreciate it. One thing I do want to say is don't downplay Pariah's boyfriend Caliban those two have quite a history and almost go hand in hand, I am actually shocked it has taken him this long to get here. Some day Ms. Foxe maybe someday I will be able to give my full attention to Boardwalk but for now I am perfectly content doing what I am doing and just glad to be a part of a great fed even if it is not on a full time basis. One final thin I wanna say is that Amy Jo couldn't have picked a better person to fill in for her...
I might not get the call from High Octane Wrestling to get a slot in War Games but you know what maybe that is all for the better. Maybe taking out all my frustrations out on the Boardwalk talent is just what the doctor ordered. And to be honest its Lee's loss for not trying to get a hold of me anyway he is still in my contact list and I know he knows I have been lobbying for a spot but whatever it is what it is again his loss.
As far as the Joker's Wild IPPV and this Jackpot Elimination series of matches consider me all in for this. The chips that the survivor or survivors get don't really mean anything to me this is about making a statement, not just to John Pariah but to the rest of the Boardwalk roster that you don't look past Noah Hanson and you never EVER take him lightly because that would be a huge mistake for each and every one of you. I want people to see what I can do from a “Fisher Price” fed like the one I work for because you know if you don't work in an “Elite” fed then by their claims you work in a junk fed. Well at Joker's Wild I am going out there for all the “Fisher Price” feds and shoving my middle finger right up each and every one of their asses and showing them that like I have said in the past the Fisher Price feds were here BEFORE you and will be here AFTER you close your doors.
One thing that being in feds like HOW and PWX showed me is that politics are still alive and well in the business and that they are not going away anytime soon. That is why I have chosen the route that I have these days and chosen the road less taken, I no longer crave the adulation and glitz and glamor that being in one of the so called “Elite” feds brings with it because those feds are also about being elitist in their attitudes and that is something I can no longer tolerate. North Atlantic Wrestling doesn't have all the bells and whistles of other feds and that is ok because not everyone craves those types of things.
Sometimes thinking that you need to be in the best feds and then seeing what they are really like backstage is the only real eye-opener you'll ever need. Sometimes the feds with the least to offer are actually the best in nature...
It's not always the brightest, prettiest or most expensive things that people need, sometimes the simple things in life are just fine...
[Bally's Hotel and Casino]
[Atlantic City, NJ]
[3/13/2016]
[1 pm]
[Spotify: “Rock With You” by Michael Jackson]
[Noah Fun Fact: Plays a mean game of Black Ops 2]
[Noah and Vixen are seen checking into their room for the next few days while they are in town for the Boardwalk PPV. They could have went to any hotel but decided to just keep it simple and get a room in Bally's. Noah looks around and tosses his gear bag on the floor in front of the bed and then walks over to kitchen area and looks at small fridge and opens it and there is a clan of Mountain Dew Livewire and smiles widely as he grabs a bottle and opens one up and takes a long drink and smiles widely. One of the few things that truly makes him happy these days, he walks over to the window and looks over the bright lights of the street below and shakes his head as he opens the window a little.]
“What am I doing?” Noah asked Vixen as he sat down on the bed. Vixen who was unpacking the couples laptop looked at her boyfriend curiously at the question as she walked over to him.
“What do you mean?” Vixen asked as she sat next to her man, placing a supportive hand on his knee. “It's only one match and you're not even doing a full time gig in Boardwalk.”
“I mean why do I keep doing this?” Noah asked. “At some point and time I have to face facts and see that I need to quit doing all this before I really do end up dead and worse it ends up being in the ring.”
Vixen looked concerned at her man and squeezed his knee gently. “Where is all this coming from?”
“You have no idea how many nights I have stayed awake wondering why I am still alive. You don't know how much torture it is seeing friends and family in my dreams, calling out to me, asking me why I am still alive almost like they are mad at me.” Noah said calmly, looking down at the floor. “Why am I alive? I don't deserve to be alive babe...i don't I should have died years ago....”
“Listen to yourself...” Vixen barked. “Are you trying to make me feel sorry for you? I know that this is bad for you, I know all about your past and that is why I love you but you need to shake this shit off and move on, life is unfair sometimes, people die, it happens and for whatever reason you have been lucky enough to survive shit that would have killed just about anyone else. Do I have the answers you're looking for? No....obviously...but you need to pull yourself together and get over it. Do you think Claire Foxe, Mike Zybala, Nova or any of those clowns on the other team are going to feel sorry for you or maybe go a little easier on you? Do you think John Pariah or Caliban is going to give a fuck about any of that?”
“No.” Noah coldly replied. “I don't expect anyone to understand what I have had to live through, my curse, my legacy but I am glad to have one thing in my life and that is you. I just wanted to tank you for sticking with me through all of this, I really don't deserve you at all even when I tried to cast you out of my life you still stuck it out...”
“I love you babe and I will do whatever I can to make all this right.” Vixen explained. “Karen, Kristina they both love you and they wanted me to watch over you and try to protect you the best I could because they knew that what they did to you scared you badly and I didn't make things any easier by the way I handled things but I am trying to fix it, I am trying to make everything right but you have to trust me things are the way they are because fate and destiny have it played out this way. You are meant for far greater things then anything you have done now.”
Noah sighed loudly at this explanation, one that he has been told over and over and has gotten tired of hearing over the years, this “greater good” deal, like he is some sort of messiah. “Quit sayin' that garbage my name is Noah Hanson, I am not Moses or Judas or fuckin' John Connor, I am not leading anyone to any sort of promised land, I am just someone that has gotten lucky and cheated death a few to many times and eventually my time just like everyone else will catch up with me.” Noah shook his head. “Cheating death..i wish people would just drop that garbage, that myth, legend whatever you want to call it started in Wrestling Midwest at Blood Factory, people thought I should have died then getting thrown off the cage and through the ring and to the floor. Maybe I should have died but to this day I still don't remember the match itself, I don't remember the months after it either. I only saw it months after when WMW replayed the PPV that I saw first hand just how fucked up I was and how bad I looked. Say we make it out of this match and I make it to the main event or whatever it is there could be some real heavy hitters in this Bryan Williams, Skylar Fall, Ash Scion and then the two that won the thing last year are also back for this year. So surviving this match is just as crazy and winning it has to be an even bigger long-shot considering everything and everyone that could possibly make it to the end.”
“Well you know this is also a chance for you and Darin to talk, you both are in town for the same show.” Vixen said, trying to obviously deflect the subject to something different.
“Look, Darin has a lot on his plate....the man has a big challenge in front of him...i don't even know where to start to look for the man. In a lot of ways it hurts not to be able to talk to someone that I used to call a brother but the other part of me understands that he needs to do stuff on his own and I can respect that, doesn't mean I like it but I can respect what the man wants to do. I want him to beat Devlin, I want him to show everyone, most importantly I want him to show LEE BEST that Darin Zion is a WORLD CLASS talent. I always saw the man as a great fighter but Lee has never looked at Zion seriously, not as bad as he looked down at me but he has always looked down at the man. Maybe that is why it has taken me so long to pick up all the pieces of my broken career, something I can thank Lee Best, John Pariah and Chris Kostoff for.” Noah paused for a moment as he watched Vixen get all of their stuff out of their bags and started sorting through things. “Do I think about retiring? All the damn time, is this the last year I do all this? Possibly, but I still need to fix a few things, I need to mend a few bridges if it is possibly but first thing I need to do is make sure that “OUR” team wins this match and whichever ones of us survive move on. We could have a lot of fun with fifty thousand in chips at Bally's but I really shouldn't get ahead of myself. I just have some work to do...”
Noah grabbed his cell and billfold and started walking towards the door.
“Where ya going?” Vixen asked.
“Going to get a drink at the bar.” Noah replied, forcing a smile out and then walking over and kissing Vixen.
“Want some company?” Vixen asked.
“Nah...just get everything set up I'll be back, just need to clear my head a little.” Noah replied.
Vixen watched as Noah exited the room and then she pulled her cell out and went through her contacts and stopped at “Karen” and hit “call” after a couple of moments passed Vixen spoke to Karen. “You need to talk to him, he needs you to talk to him.” Vixen ended the call and then looked at the door. “If you wanna mend bridges you have to start with your own past baby...”
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